My daughter will be leaving for Florida in six days. Her father and I are going with her in her car and driving all the way to Tampa where we will stay with my sister. I have a lot of mixed emotions about the whole situation.
Sure, I'm going to love seeing my sis again. I just finished talking to her on the phone; and it's been over 6 years since we saw each other! Sure, I'm going to love to sit at the beach and watch the sun go down while I drink a pina colada from a straw. I'll love seeing and listening tothe waves splash against the sun baked sand. I'm just not quite ready to leave my youngest, my daughter ,who just turned 21 ,there all alone to face the world on her own. She's ready, I'm not.
I suppose you could be philosophical about it. Isn't that what parents are SUPPOSED to do? Teach their children to be self sufficient and independent? THEN WHY DO I FEEL LIKE CRAP!?? Why is it that when I sat outside earlier as I enjoyed the cool breeze and the fresh air I suddenly found myself crying?? How can I be happy and sad at the same time? It's possible.
Friday, September 19, 2008
Friday, September 5, 2008
This n' That
I've been sitting at this computer for hours when it is a beautiful day today. Why? I don't know why. Perhaps I"m a little sad. Perhaps I'm just being lazy. Perhaps I'm bored. I know, you're saying to yourself, "how can you be bored?" I used to say to my kids when they said they were bored, "UNBORE YOURSELF!!"
There's so much I could do; but it all involves CLEANING and I really don't wanna do that. I do enough of that at work. No, I"m not a cleaning lady, not per se, I have to clean up after the preschoolers in my class. Make sure the tables are sanitized, chairs are wiped, papers are tidy, etc etc, besides interacting, teaching, and guiding the little darlin's. So by the time I get home I"m not exactly enthused about doing it all over again in my own home; til it gets totally disgusting (like four inches of dust and a layer of pet hair so thick on my carpet you can't see the pattern in it anymore).
Only a few weeks til my Jessica goes away to college in Florida. We are driving down there and flying back, leaving her behind in her own apartment she will share with 3 other students. So we'll travel light and just take her essentials----clothes, shampoos and hair doodads galore. I hope we can stuff it all in the trunk of her car; she's got a small one. I am looking forward to seeing my sister Josephine and her new condo. And I'm so wanting to sit by the ocean, sipping a cold drink and watching the sun go down. Feeling the breeze on my face, watching the tides come and go; smelling the salty air and listening to the peaceful sound of the waves splashing at my feet. God I hope there is no hurricane!!!! I have many thoughts on taking her down there, but for now, I'll just keep them in my heart.
There's so much I could do; but it all involves CLEANING and I really don't wanna do that. I do enough of that at work. No, I"m not a cleaning lady, not per se, I have to clean up after the preschoolers in my class. Make sure the tables are sanitized, chairs are wiped, papers are tidy, etc etc, besides interacting, teaching, and guiding the little darlin's. So by the time I get home I"m not exactly enthused about doing it all over again in my own home; til it gets totally disgusting (like four inches of dust and a layer of pet hair so thick on my carpet you can't see the pattern in it anymore).
Only a few weeks til my Jessica goes away to college in Florida. We are driving down there and flying back, leaving her behind in her own apartment she will share with 3 other students. So we'll travel light and just take her essentials----clothes, shampoos and hair doodads galore. I hope we can stuff it all in the trunk of her car; she's got a small one. I am looking forward to seeing my sister Josephine and her new condo. And I'm so wanting to sit by the ocean, sipping a cold drink and watching the sun go down. Feeling the breeze on my face, watching the tides come and go; smelling the salty air and listening to the peaceful sound of the waves splashing at my feet. God I hope there is no hurricane!!!! I have many thoughts on taking her down there, but for now, I'll just keep them in my heart.
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